You had me at hello.

I don’t even know how to explain how unhappy I really am.

I can’t stop crying. Lord please make this misery end.

Nobody knows me. Nobody understands me. & nobody cares to. I hide so much. I hide everything. I can’t take this. I hate it so much. I need to just cry & run & scream. I need to be alone but even more I need to feel cared about. More than anything. I just need someone to legitimately care.

My mom honestly makes me hate my life & myself so much. I have no doubt that she wouldn’t miss me if I was gone. It would be so much better that way.

For some reason, my mood always gets ruined right before I go to bed. I hate going to bed angry.

It’s official, I’m getting out of here for spring break! My moms cousin is allowing us to stay in her beach front condo for free that week. Can’t wait to be back there again! Here I come Orange Beach :) Jillian might even get to go with! Such a good day I had.

Today was honestly one of the worst days in a while.

The fact that I absolutely know no one is gonna ask me to prom is making me beyond depressed.

You have been such an inspiration to me & I don’t think you fully understand that. You guided me down this path that changed my life & changed who I am. Thank you.

This is so much harder than I ever thought it was gonna be. I’m not giving up though.
Philippians 4:13

My parents & I had a long & good discussion tonight about God, church & basically just religion in general. It was really good. I love that I have the parents I do. Even though my mom & I fight, they’re honestly perfect & I’m so blessed. Also, after our discussion they said they wanna go to church with me on Easter. I couldn’t be happier 😊

You’ve always gotten irritated with me for being too dramatic, being sad & unhappy too much & for spending too much time focusing on the future but almost everything you post is dramatic, negative or about the future.

Is there a right way for how this goes
You’ve got your friends
And you’ve got your foes
They want a piece of something hot
Forget your name like they forgot

Oh, ain’t that something

Some wanna see you crash and burn
And criticize your every word
I’m trying to keep from going insane
Ain’t that the way of this whole damn thing

Oh, trying to be something more

Nobody’s gonna love you if you can’t display a way to capture this
Nobody’s gonna hold your hand and guide you through
No it’s up for you to understand
Nobody’s gonna feel your pain when all is done and it’s time for you to walk away
So when you have today you should say all that you have to say

Is there a right way for being strong?
Feels like I’m doing things all wrong
Still I’m here just holding on
Confess my heart and forgive my wrongs.

Oh, just trying to show you something more

Don’t point the blame when you can’t find nothing
Look to yourself and you might find something
It’s time that we sorted out
All of the things we complain about

So listen close to the sound of your soul
Take back a life we led once before
If it ain’t you then who?
If it ain’t you then who’s gonna love you?

So when you have today
Say all that you have to say